This weekend was just wonderful. Friday night, B and I met up with our friends Andy and Amanda for Acapulco. Mexican is soooo good! We got to sit out on the patio and enjoy the sunshine. Then later that night we enjoyed a good relaxing bonfire in the backyard. We somehow got on the subject of music that we listed to back in high school (about 10 years ago), and it was so fun! We're all country music fans, except for Amanda, who is more of a pop/dance/rock type person. But it's so funny how way back when we all used to listen to rap and rock like Missy Elliot, Lil Kim, Sum 41, Alien Ant Farm...to name a few that came up that night :)
Then Saturday after work, I headed up north to visit my Mom and Grandma. It was SSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOO nice to actually go up there and not have to do a damn thing. We just got to sit around and talk. Enjoying ourselves. And even the talk was nice. It wasn't the typical "Steph are you looking for a better job?" "Steph when are you getting a house?" "Steven this, Tom that." We just had nice casual conversation and enjoyed each other's company.
Mom cooked the BEST lobster ravioli from Costco on Saturday night and we had an "Olive Garden" night at home. Bread and dipping oil, Caesar salad with real Parmesan cheese flakes, asparagus, and the wonderful raviolis with butter sauce. Oh my god....it was awesome.
Then Sunday for Mother's Day, my sister and I took Mom out for lunch at Poncho and Lefty's in Brainerd. The food was really good there too and, like always, order too much to eat and too big of a drink :)
My pretty Mama :)
Jumbo margarita...yum!
Take another one...oooh...another one... (I'm used to this from Jen...picky picture person) lol
We then ran to Costco (can you tell we like that store?) and got some things and tried lots of yummy samples of food :)
Grandma is all moved into her new house...well...for the most part. A lot of stuff is still at my Mom's, but Grandma is now able to live in her house and function. It looks nice for all of her stuff. It just seems to fit her perfectly. I'm glad she is happy living in a different town because we thought that would be a big adjustment for her.
She is asking B to do a restoration project for her. She has this old bench that needs new planks to be able to even sit on it without falling through. It will be nice to have something outside on her little slab of a patio to enjoy the sunshine and a few potted plants.
Before pic. It's not even safe to sit on this baby!
Then the fun all came to an end when I had to come home. I missed B, even though it was only for a day and a half, but it was weird not having him here this weekend. Everything just seems to be nicer when you're closer to your family. Plus up north is so much more calm and relax. It just feels good to get away from the norm.
What I realized over the weekend, however, is that I really need to start taking this weight loss situation seriously. It seemed that fitness and health came up quite often over the weekend, and I feel that I have been cheating myself. I mean come on, let's face it. I joined the gym in November and I haven't lost much more than 4 lbs, but that goes up and down quite often. I splurge and eat out all the time, snack in the candy jar at work, eat chips in bed when I'm bored. I'm the reason that I'm not losing the weight.
Why do I do this to myself? I'm thinking it's that I'm scared to push myself. I'm scared to commit to a healthy lifestyle. The stupid little thoughts in my head like "I'll never get to eat a piece of fried chicken or cherry cheesecake again" plays in my head, so I have it, then ruin what I've done for the day. I have to get into the mentality that I used to have that food is basically just fuel. When I did this during WW in high school, I did so well. Yes, I didn't really allow myself to eat sweets because I thought they would ruin everything, but I was happier then. I was thinner then. I was the true Steph then. And that's why I say enough is enough.
I'm going to commit myself to eat a healthier lifestyle. Record everything that I eat in MFP. No shortcuts or cheats.
I'm going to commit myself to actually exerting myself during workout sessions at they gym. No more 20-30 minute elliptical runs and be done. Damn it, I need to sweat. I need to be there for at least 1 1/2 hours to actually accomplish something.
I need to commit to myself that I can do this so I look better in pictures for everything that is going on this summer. Weddings, vacations, Wefest, our 5 year anniversary. Wow... to think back 5 years and what I looked like to what I look like now...barf...
I need to commit myself to my 10 before 30 goals and the goals that B has set for me. His number one goal for me was to stick to the things that I start. This is a perfect example of the things that I struggle with and give up. But not this time. I can beat this.
Enough is enough Steph. I'm better than this. I can do this.
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